Hello again! Thank you for returning to my blog and reading more! Let’s get to it, shall we! To become the best version of yourself, you must learn to turn rejection into the most magnificent party ever! Rejection is an opportunity to grow, and it should never, ever be anything else but that. Some people will reject you because you are a diamond. You dazzle in the light and shine to way to bight for them, that is ok, you are a diamond dear; they cannot break you. Diamonds are often looked at but never possessed by the people who cannot afford them. You need to remember that you being a diamond is your armor and it protects your glittering fire from being snuffed out.
One saying that fits this section perfectly is ” It is ok to be a glowstick. sometimes we need to break to shine.” If you are not rebuffed on a daily, then your dreams are not bold enough. A pineapple must have fearless dreams that make her crazy enough to think she can change the world. She needs the strength and the courage to look right into a dragon’s eyes and take him head-on no matter how scared she is. Nothing is worth doing if it does not scare the s**t out of her. She will not slay all the dragon’s she battles head on, but she will learn from her mistakes. A majority of those Dragon’s won’t be so lucky. She came to win!
“There are very few people in your life who will tell you the things you need to hear, rather than what you want to hear, no matter the consequences. They will keep you sane, they will keep you brave, and they will keep you humble.” I don’t know who said this or where it came from I just know the words have a power we all need to submit to on a very personal level. A pineapple must tell herself the things she needs to hear, not the things she wants to hear. A woman has limits on what kind of energy she is willing to accept into her life. We have the right to refuse anything that is not good for us personally. Society wants to tell you who you are, but it’s all an illusion. Merlin has perfected his magic and willed it on society and made everyone think like a cookie cutter, when, in reality, you are different, you are a woman who has glitter in her veins. You need to shine brightly by default. The one thing you can count on is you. You need to have your eyes wide open to the fact that people will try to make your life a living h**l if you make a decision that they do not approve of. You are just going to have to mount your feet to the ground and let your fire burn high and bright. Let them be upset because they can’t touch your fire without getting burned. That makes you the sun, and they become the moon because every time you rise up, they go down. They will eventually stop trying. Please remember that this journey is about you, and you need to make them responsible for dealing with their own reactions. My oldest daughter gave me a quote from one of her favorite singers in Bangtan Boys, RM. He says, “Kill them with success and bury them with a smile.” enough said.
On my computer, the other day, a funny little message appeared on my screen that hit me like a ton of bricks. The content on the screen read “Life at a Glance,” and there were three things in my “Life at a Glance” Internet Explorer, Microsoft Edge and the recycle bin. I kept looking at it expecting something more exciting to be happening in that little black box. My “Life at a Glance” was staring back at me, and it looked empty, dark, and lonely. My eyes kept finding the recycle bin. I use the recycle bin a lot on my computer. It was the one feature that allowed me the ability to discard anything that I no longer needed. I finally realized that maybe my “Live at a Glance” was not everything it appeared to be. I had the world literally at my fingertips to research my dreams with Explorer and Edge. I had access to tools to help me experience anything I wanted. No one was in my little box restricting me. The little lightbulb binged on in my head as I discovered that I could get rid of my own personal trolls, all I had to do was make a simple move to put them in the recycle bin. I could walk away. I can tell you that I am beginning to love the sound of me walking away.
I was in a very abusive relationship for three years. I was not a pineapple at this time in my life. The father of my children was physically, mentally, and verbally abusive to me. He was an alcoholic and a drug addict. I didn’t know whose life I was living, but it wasn’t mine. He took my crown from me and decimated it. He talked me out of my armor one piece at a time and placed it on himself. He made me think that he was going to protect me, but he was not a man, he was a dragon trying to win my kingdom. Soon I was no longer able to defend myself when the rest of the dragons came to destroy my kingdom; I was just trying to survive the attacks. I was scared and felt like I had no power to redesign my crown or demand my armor back. I ended up in his torture chamber chained to the wall just taking the abuse every day. There was one person in my kingdom who left me a key when he was not looking, and I finally escaped. He got into a fight with my Landlord and the police were called. Before the police arrived, he managed to injure my hand and throw a shoe at my oldest daughter’s head; she was two at the time. He attempted to throw a lamp at my landlord that broke before it hit her. That pissed him off, so he then tried to grab our 30-gallon fish tank to throw at her. I ran to my neighbors with my kids. The police finally came and interviewed me at my neighbor’s house and said they couldn’t take him based off what he tried to do to my landlord because he never actually touched her, but he did touch my daughter and me. I took back my armor at that moment, and I slayed the biggest and most destructive dragon in my kingdom that day. I told the officer to, “take him, I will press charges.” I sent him to jail that day, and I never looked back.
I grabbed my kids and my pets I packed our clothes and, we left our home. It was time to rebuild my kingdom. The victim’s advocate was giving me a pep talk before the restraining order hearing. She said to me “1 in 10 women ask for the permanent restraining order in these hearings. Which one are you going to be the 1 or one of the 9’s? I went into the hearing, sat on the stand and looked him straight in the eye as told the judge what he had said to me. “If you ever call the cops on me you better run and hope that I don’t find you, because if I do, I will kill you and I will take those kids and hide them. No one will ever see them again.” The judge granted a permanent no-contact restraining order for my daughters and me that is still valid to this day. We don’t hear from him, and he has stayed away. His family hated me, and they still do because I choose to say “NO MORE.” Now, I am here, and I am telling you my story and hoping no matter what situation you are in you are the 1 and not one of the 9’s.
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